What are you waiting for, A Certain shade of green?

this is really weird.
I'm not sure I've ever gone this long without having a crush before.
Well, not since sixth grade when I actually started liking boys.
(AHH MAN! Any other boy blog? Crap. Well to you I say, Shut Up! ;) )

It seems like I always have a thing, at least a little one, for at least one boy.
Always.
Right now, nothing.
No one, I should say.
It's really weird.
It's been like this for a few months now.
There is no prospects.
No one I'm even remotely interested in.
There's no one even eligible.

I'm not sure what it means yet.
I keep telling myself it's so I'll be available when the right person comes along,
That God is sending someone my way, and this way I'll be ready,
But no one is here yet.

I've been keeping my eyes open, considering people I never have before,
Nope.
Nothing there.

There's always that I'm just supposed to be alone right now,
Nothing wrong with that.
And it's very true.
I like being single.
I can be who I want,
Where I want,
When I want,
and not have to worry that it's going to make my boyfriend mad.

But I feel so alone.
I have AMAZING friends, but there's a missing thing there.
When something amazing happens, there's no one that I automatically want to tell.
If I have a spare hour when I'm bored, no one immediately comes to mind to call.
Who do I invite to a Hawks game or a cousin's wedding or a school dance?
Yeah, my amazing friends, but it's just different.
And most of my friends have significant others.
They have their boyfriends or their girlfriends,
so at the end of the night, they want to be with them.
I completely understand that, but where does it leave me?
Alone at home with a book or the remote.

I'm just not sure what to do anymore.
Yeah, there's college.
I'm sure to meet TONS of new people there.
Friends.
More than friends...
But that's 10 months from now.

I love her dearly, but I don't want to bring Danielle to Prom.
I want to have all the fun senior memories.
I'd love to go on a first date.
I'm just out of people.
Grrrr.

Ahh, the Power of Queso..

WELP,
Time for an update I suppose.

Life is busy for me right now.
GO GO GO GO GO GO GO!
So tonight is nice.
No homework.
No immediate commitments.
Nothing needs done for tomorrow.
This is nice...

Have you ever seen Across the Universe?
You should.
It's amazing.
I watched it last night, so I had Beatles stuck in my head all day.
Not a bad thing at ALL!

Ooo, something does need done.
I need to read a play.
We're doing a Jr. High play again this year, and I'm co-directing.
Oh well, it can wait for a few minutes.
It's two pages long, so it'll take about half a second to read.

Tomorrow, the Beaver Tale editor, our advisor, and myself get to visit with the principal (who is NOT my pal right now) about the new editorial policy Dylan (BT Editor) drew up.
For some reason, our administrator thinks he has the right to edit our student publications all he wants, which is illegal in this great state of Iowa.
So I'm super glad I about getting yelled at for an hour.
Should be fun times.

Ooo!
Haunted housing was fun.
A group of us went Saturday night after the Hawkeye game in which we KILLED Wisconsin.
That was awesome.
We are a goofy bunch, let me tell you.

I need a laptop.
Any suggestions?
I'm leaning toward Apple, even though they're hellaciously expensive.
I've heard they're good for photo editing, and the whole journalism department at Drake uses Apple.
Let me know if this is a horrible idea or a great one.

Technology.

Welp, it's official.
Anything electronic hates me.
It's a shock I can even type this right now, I'm a little concerned the keyboard is going to blow up mid-word.
My new phone, the keyboard keeps sucking.
The letters either stick so I get ddoouubbllee letters or they don't work so I get letters.
OR the Back key sticks so I have to
OR the Back key sticks so I have to start all over again.
It's stupid.

AND my iPod.
I've made two calls in two days to the apple help line.
I've restored it something like 10 times now sinces Monday.
(Made it "like new" by wiping it clean.)
I'm SOOOO pissed.

Even the remote flew out of my hand and ended up in pieces earlier.
Grrr.

On a better note, Homecoming week has be AMAZING!
The funniest things have happened.
Brad Garrett dressed up like a woman for the senior football mom skit.
Old People/Teacher day was the best idea EVER!
We had toilets on our senior float. (Then dispensed them around town....)
The game is looking promising, and I'm bringing my Danielle to the dance, so it's going to be a blast too.
Wooo Hooo!

I'm such a dork.