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Wednesday, December 3, 2008

It's almost midnight.
Again.
For some reason, I can't sleep anymore.
I'm so burnt out.
Every thing feels so dead.
Things I used to get so excited about barely coax a smile.
People that used to make me laugh for hours do nothing.
I try so hard to be optimistic:
"Things will change!.. Everything will be different when you get out of Wilton...
College will be so much better than this"
But will it?
Or is it me.
It  has to be.
Other people enjoy high school.
Other people enjoy their lives.
I've tried so hard to not get caught up in the crap.
I wanted my senior year to be the best.
I tried to do things I wanted to do.
They all ended up being horrible.
This is stupid.
Why do I put myself through this.
Maybe this is why no one will ever want me...